I hear you man, that shit rings home. I guess a clever thing one could do is to be aware of the small changes that occurs in your consciousness when your stuttering falls back into the good old struggle. I mean -- and as you wrote -- it has to be something in your psyche that shifts or simply that one bad experience is put to another, and then the moronic brains thinks that this is how it is supposed to be from now on. Well of course it's psychological -- everything is. I could by the way recommend cognitive behavioural therapy in that aspect. I haven't gone for that long, just a couple of times before the summer, but it sure did help when it came to my stuttering. My confidence litteraly tenfolded. More or less. This might be a bit radical to say, atleast from what I've read on this sub, but I think a whole lot of our struggle is a product of us being -- once again, this is clearly my perspective -- unseen throughout our childhoods and early teens. What I've understood is that many of us tend to hide from both ourselves and others, which ultimately lead to worry and fear. From the few sessions with the psychologist I had, I noticed some great results truly. Obviously this approach doesn't suit everyone, like everything else. Random thoughts :)