I've been a stutter since I can remember and I am currently a 16 year old junior in highschool, it is really getting to me.

I've been a stutter since I can remember and I am currently a 16 year old junior in highschool, it is really getting to me. It's not fair. It's just not fucking fair. Why am i not allowed to speak like all of the other kids? Why am i not allowed to participate in discussions without looking like an idiot. Because of my stutter I am basically "mute" in class. I am too ashamed, I do not speak, I do not raise my hand, I just sit in class and do my work. I always imagine how better my life would be if I didn't stutter and sometimes it gets me depressed just thinking about all of the things I've wanted to say but never could. Due to my stutter I have severe anxiety. I am also afraid of being a stutterer for all of my life, I want to change but I don't know how. No one else I know stutters so I am all alone in this, it is just not fair. I WANT TO TALK. I WANT TO HAVE A GIRLFRIEND. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PARTICIPATE IN CLASS READINGS AND DISCUSSIONS. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A PRESENTATION. Sorry for the rant its just been bottled inside me for years and being a stutter not like I can talk to anyone about it.