Sometimes I see successful people and I get sad about myself...

Sometimes I see successful people and I get sad about myself... I love this youtuber Elayna Carausu from SLV, she is a sailor. She seems to have amazing communication skills and that's how she always had tons of friends was bubbly and became a millionaire through YouTube. She can network. Well, I then think you could never do that even if your personality is similar to hers because you can't talk properly and people will never view you the same way. I can't really network or bond with people so easily mainly because my speech is problematic. I just wish I could speak normal for 5 years, I'd do so much with my life! People tell me I'm talented in acting and singing,but I don't have the guts to pursue them. I always say if stuttering wasn't there nothing would stop me. Now, I just feel like I'm already in a disadvantage and chasing the dream would be very high risk and maybe even stupid. So I get sad when I see that everything is possible for others and not me. Sometimes I'm like okay you'll sit and practice your speech every single day for hours until you get the fluency you want, but it's a neurological disorder and it feels like im trying to grow a limb and a waste of time