This sounds like a tough and even lonelier issue to deal with. One thing that may be in your advantage though if for many of us, we didn't know how to deal with this growing up and as a result developed some really difficult associations and behaviors that are not easy to change. If you live in the US, I would really encourage you to check out the NSA where it would be easier for you to find others in your situation. http://www.stutteringhelp.org/ is probably the best overall resource for stuttering info.