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Good Days and Bad Days I am male, 20 years old, and over the past couple of years I have noticed my tendency to stutter has become very polarized. Sometimes I will have a period of say 3 days to a week where I feel energetic, confident, and speak with near 90% fluency. Then I will have a week or two where I just have a hard time putting sentences together and speaking them, I feel awkward, self-conscious, socially anxious, and it generally feels like a struggle to form words and speak at all. It feels like in these two mindsets I am like two different people. For me stuttering feels like it is definitely neurological, but sometimes psychological, and is heavily dependent on my emotional state and who I am around, and also the topic of conversation. There was even a time a couple years ago where went for two entire months, November and December, where I thought I had grown out of stuttering, because I was fluent to the point where I would just walk up to people at my college and initiate conversations, my social anxiety was non-existent, this was the first time in my life this had happened to me and I felt amazing. I was like 99% fluent for almost 60 days. Then it came back. Right now, these past couple months, it is worse than it has been in years and I don't know why. It is frustrating to me because I know I am capable of consistently fluent speech, I just can't put my finger on the causes and the variables that cause me to have good/bad mindsets during certain days/months. I think it has something to do with hormones and probably a host of other variables, but. Anybody else have similar experiences?