How do you guys deal with having good days and bad days when it comes to stuttering?

How do you guys deal with having good days and bad days when it comes to stuttering? I just wanted to come on here and ask for some advice about stuttering. It’s something I’ve dealt with for most of my life — I actually got it from my dad. Every time I ask him for advice, he just tells me to *slow down* when I talk. And trust me, I’ve tried. It works on some days… but on others, it doesn’t help at all. I’ve done speech therapy. I’ve tried different techniques. I’ve even read *Beyond Stuttering* by Dave McGuire. There’s some great stuff in there, but applying it in real-life conversations — that’s where I struggle the most. Right now, I run my own sports nutrition company, and to grow it, I have to talk to people — whether it’s at the gym or out and about. I always try to be open with people about the fact that I stutter, and most of the time, they’re really understanding. But today I did a product booth at a local gym… and man, I could barely get a single word out. It was one of the “bad days.” I have those often — where one day I can speak on stage in front of 4,000 people, sharing my story and mindset… and the next day, I struggle to hold a simple one-on-one conversation. I can usually feel when a bad day is coming, but I never really know how to *handle* it. I wouldn’t say my stutter is super severe. I can have conversations, and sometimes people even tell me they didn’t know I stuttered at all — which I guess is a good thing. But honestly, I don’t really have anyone I can *really* talk to about this. That’s why I’m posting here. This stutter has taken a serious toll on my mental health. And I’m tired of hearing things like *“just fight through it”* or *“just slow down.”* It’s eating me alive. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about how different life would be if I didn’t have a stutter. Back in 2020, I actually tried to end my life — and lately, those thoughts have been coming back almost every day. I’ve tried speech therapy. I’ve tried regular therapy. Neither helped much, and honestly, they were way too expensive to keep up with. On top of all this, I’ve been dealing with a porn addiction for the last 5 years. It’s like a double whammy. I notice that I stutter more after I relapse, and I tend to relapse when I’m feeling down about my stutter. It’s a vicious cycle that’s been hard to break. If anyone else out there deals with something similar — I’d love to hear how you cope with it. How do you keep going? How do you speak confidently when your brain feels like it’s fighting you every step of the way? Appreciate you if you read all this. You’re not alone. And I hope I’m not either.