I'm sorry you're going through a hard time, I've been there myself quite a few times. But I've learned something, everyone is going through their own crap. We're stuck in a world of verbal people, we only see the "successful" around us when the truth is something much different. These times are like going for walks on the treadmill at the gym, versus going for walks in the park. At the gym you only see the really fit people around you, you stand out and it sucks. But when you go to the park, you see so many normal people you start to fit in. We all stick out in some ways, we all have warts, it's just that some of ours are more visible.