Dude, you’re allowed to be human. Life sucks sometimes and it knocked you down. I’m glad you reached out. You’re not alone. It sounds like you’ve pinpointed what you want to change- relationships. The best way to connect is in person. Can you find groups where people have the same interests as you? Can you volunteer to help people where it taps into a passion of yours? Helping others is a way to feel useful. Do you have NSA in your area? Some PWS use toastmasters as a safe practice place. Maybe if you could give us your general Geographic area we can help you find your tribe. It is isolating. It is a constant struggle and it is a barrier to getting to know people. How many days til Chicago? I hope tomorrow is a better day. Please check in.