First I want to say that you are not alone and that your feelings of anger and resentment are completely valid and understandable. My younger brother stutters, and I have watched him go through different trials with his stuttering. That's why I'm in this sub. I loved that you said you wanted to be an "overt stutterer", it was seriously perfect. I'm an SLP grad student studying under a bored certified fluency specialist. My professor always encourages any of our fluency clients to just "let the stutter out." Once you OWN the stutter, and I mean really really OWN it...it doesn't matter if you have a moment of dysfluency. Tell people to wait and listen to you when you stutter, use it as an opportunity to educate people. You shouldn't have to spend all of your energy trying to avoid certain words or situations, that's just exhausting. PS: I know that just letting your stutter come out can be very very hard. It sucks, its scary and kinda uncomfortable at times. I also don't suggest doing this without a good support system in place. http://www.westutter.org is an amazing place. Find your local chapter, and go to the meeting. You may want to talk to someone who understands so that your feelings of anger don't turn into an unhealthy hate. TL;DR- Be healthy. Own your stutter, find support and talk to someone about your feelings.