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Having a stutter sucks This is going to be a little long and is pretty much just a rant. I have had a stutter for as long as I can remember but I didn't really feel insecure about it until high school. Because of this I always faded into the back of my classes hoping to never be called on even when I really wanted to contribute to the class. I hardly ever expanded from my middle school social circle because I genuinely fear introducing myself to new people. Just being asked to say my own name sends shivers down my spine since I always stammer really badly when pronouncing it. I'm in college now and that fear has honestly gotten worse but that does not mean I am not trying to get past it. I try my best to interact with at least one new person a day, but nothing is worse than seeing the bewildered/amused smirks on people's faces as I slowly trudge through sentences. I did make one new friend so far but the amount of stress I went through to accomplish this just makes it all seem worthless in the grand scheme of things. Earlier today there was this cute girl in my class and we seemed to be getting along pretty well, but I have avoided formally introducing myself so far. I told myself I would today but as soon as I opened my mouth I had reached a wall and in the end I chickened out. During the depressing walk back to my dorm I couldn't help but get angry at myself for acting so cowardly. There's always next week I guess... My worst nightmare that I have yet to face is a job interview. During my time off from school I would work for my dad's business so thankfully there was no interview needed. However, once school is over and im in the real world I don't know how I will cope with numerous interviews. I even have occasional nightmares that involve me stammering through entire interviews while being constantly laughed at. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I didn't stutter... Sorry for the long and somewhat depressing post everyone. I just really needed to blow some steam and punching the wall isn't an option at the moment.