Yeah you block like me. I block too. Tbh blocking is brutal. I didn’t want to go on meds either. But if I get a break from everything and then constant anxiety over preempting having to talk. Then that’s a positive. They are drugs. So it is a drug in your system and once you go on antidepressant you may never be able to go off them… but if they help you feel a little bit better overall and your anxiety and depression is less… then that’s a positive.