I'm hitting my breaking point

I'm hitting my breaking point I've been stuttering since I've been 4. Im 23 now and I'm just hitting my breaking point. I'm getting very upset with myself when I get blocks and I'm seriously considering muting myself forever. I can sign in ASL pretty well and I feel like I'd be happier just never talking again. I have such a weak voice and my stuttering is causing me so much mental distress. Part of me knows its an awful thing to do but it worries me that I'm totally game for muting myself forever. I'm just venting here because I have no one else to talk to about this. I'm sorry