Thanks for the encouraging words. Unfortunately, I can't afford therapy. I can't even open up to my family. I need to let out my inner fears, my school life bitter experiences, etc but I've got no money to go for therapy. Everything is expensive. I try to find something online but it isn't as effective as what I'm needing. I'm not alone yes but here I feel that I'm the only one living like this and it kills me. Hugs to you too(: