It requires money and I'm financially down at the moment. I did go to a therapist when I was little but that didn't work out as expected. Now, I can't even open up to my family as they're all extroverts, they've no idea what it feels like to be in my position. I feel if I eliminate the negative or the anticipatory thoughts, I'd be able to speak without any inhibitions. When I was at the cinema, I had to speak to a person on the phone and another person asked for my name (regarding the booking) and I immediately said it without any fear, there have been such instances but due to previous experiences my mind is conditioned to feel this way and I want to get rid of these thoughts.