Man, I can relate so much! I get so distracted by fighting the demon that I just throw words out so I can quickly escape the situation. I battle the exact same things you do! Today I was working out at the gym, I try to work out in peace and not talking to anybody, the gym has been my safe haven. But, today a person I knew from before approached me and starting asking what's up, I blocked so hard and was making this ugly tic I get when I have to shoot out my words. I just wanted to dissapear through the ground, he was acting like it didn't bother him but I'm sure he is talking about me right now... When he started walking towards me I thought, "Oh no, here we go! Time to get cringe and awkward again". At first he didn't even hear what I said because I was skipping words, then I had to repeat myself which always ends up with a huge block. Now I want to switch to a different gym... I'm pretty sure people think that I have had a stroke or something.