What makes you WANT to keep talking

What makes you WANT to keep talking Just like the title says. What makes you WANT to talk? I've gotten to the point that I just don't want to talk anymore. I acknowledge that it won't improve if I don't talk, but evey mess up every block and every stutter just feels 10 times worse than when I sometimes am able to say something clearly. Even when I have a "conversation" with someone, I don't think in these last couple of years I've come out of it thinking I'm glad that I talked to them. I really don't want to bring anymore negativity in this sub. I just struggle to find a point in choosing to go through the struggle of talking for the sake of talking.