Reading in class or having to do a presentation is something that kills me inside. I try to control my stutter but it is difficult, like lifting a weight, a really heavy one, and as soon as I stutter it's like if that weight falls on me. So I start to feel numb, trying not to care about all the eyes that are looking at me and about my deskmate, who, you know, feels a little embarassed for me. Usually after this happens I try not to talk or look anyone in the eyes for an hour, until the lesson ends. Then when I get home I feel like shit. Even tho most of my friends know I stutter (I think so?) I don't have the courage to tell them, it would mean to accept it and it's something that I can't do, not yet. Sorry if I made some mistakes, English is not my first language.