I know the pain you are feeling. Last year i reached absolute rock bottom. Hell really does exist. I have been stuttering for the last 10 years and each year always hoping that it will dissapear, till now it still didnt happen. Last year my stutter destroyed me. I realized i had 0 friends, lived an isolated life, was regretting all the things i did not do in life because of my stutter witholding me. All that lost time which i can never get back. Having a dark future in which i can still not express myself. It killed me inside. I cried for hours in my room. Totally alone. I even thought about suicide. But i am a strong person who doesnt give up fast. So I decided to still keep fighting because some day i believe it will get better. Just hang in there, it helps if you realize that you are not alone. I am supporting you.