It’s hard. I can compare it with going to the gym. At first you don’t enjoy going. It’s difficult training and it’s even more difficult being consistent by going like 3 days a week for months. You hope to enjoy the results once they start showing months after. After that you start enjoying the progress. It’s still difficult but at least you’ve build a habit of doing it and a mindset of not keeping your mouth shut. And finally once you can communicate yourself every time regardless if it takes 1 minute or 10 second to say it you can start enjoying the process because your thinking of what went well and how you can be better the next time. At this point you no longer care what other people think - you only care about the few at which the message is directed and yourself. The last part may take years but that’s been my own process and I can say that stuttering has not stopped me from achieving what I want and enjoying speaking my mind when I want to. It’s your choice how you deal with it. Hit me up if I can help ;)