Absolutely. And then suddenly I just go nonverbal because I'm left with no energy whatsoever. Whenever I have a busy day ahead where I know I'm gonna have to talk to people, I wake up and immediately fear the total exhaustion that awaits me and the worst thing is that I sometimes avoid hanging out with my friends and socializing that's supposed to be relaxing and fun because I know it's either going to be 1. try to communicate as much as I can and then get so insanely tired and be left with no energy for anything 2. Showing up but avoiding talking and just making myself feel bad because I want to say things and socialize but I get tired while speaking and I envy everyone who can tell a funny story or keep the conversation and then I want to cry