In need of a little advice, words of wisdom, support & all the above.

In need of a little advice, words of wisdom, support & all the above. I'm at a point where I feel like my speech has gotten really bad. Like I can barely say two words. I attribute this to the fact that going days, sometimes weeks, without really talking to anyone probably doesn't help lol. Taking this "vow of silence" is obviously counterproductive to making any gains in establishing control over my speech, but then again there are times I feel like I rather not hear my voice at all than bare watching myself struggle to speak, and even worse, the reactions of others and how they appear more nervous than me. I know these feelings aren't exactly unique, and the best thing for me to do is just speak more and practice. But I don't think aimlessly speaking is going to help. Does that make sense? And I've tried using easy onsets and various other speech techniques, but it's so hard to actually use them. My blocking has just gotten really out of control. If any of you could give me some advice or throw some words of wisdom, that would be great. My birthday is coming up on the 21st and I'll be turning 23. I've been stuttering since middle school. I realize this is something I'll be dealing with for the rest of my life and I've accepted that for the most part. But I just fail to see any progress and it's just really disheartening knowing I've been through speech therapy and I've put myself in numerous social scenarios, but here I am, choking on my own words as if I was still that kid in middle school. Also, a little off topic, but do you guys think reading aloud to yourself helps? I've tried it but it feels so incredibly pointless sometimes. I've read people who stutter often don't stutter when they read aloud by themselves, but even I find myself tripping over a word or 2. Is it worth doing more or does it make no difference whatsoever? I feel helpless. Thanks.