Sorry for the late comment, but I completely relate to this. I had a horrible stutter as a child, and I didn't exactly have the best teachers or classmates to help me with it. It kind of locked me out of class activities and pretty much conversation in general. Most kids in my school were Pakistani, and as a nice side effect by 5th grade every non-Paki kid could speak Urdu in addition to their mother tongue and English. Except me, I just spoke (lol) the latter. Anyways, I remember feeling the exact same way you did. It started to change when I shifted schools. Everything happened rather quickly back then - there wasn't much time to get adjusted, and on the first day of school I quietly decided that since I wasn't going to make friends (or a good impression) anyway, I might as well fuck it and do whatever the hell I. And so I started asking doubts in class. I always raised my hand for every question the teachers asked, even if I didn't know the answer. I might have stammered a bit, I don't remember - I just know that I didn't care. Neither did I care about remarks of "nerd" or "chumchum" (slang for sucking up to the teachers). It honestly felt so good to be able to finally express myself verbally - it felt even better to receive praise and recognition for it. 2014 was the year I stopped stuttering. Not 100%, but it reduced to such an extent that no one really noticed it, and if they did they usually chalked it up to me being too excited or talking too fast at that moment. Problem is, it seems to be coming back. Just last night I went out for a movie with my friends and I noticed that I wasn't able to form certain words. I clammed up when ordering a burger, and had to pause and use synonyms several times. I'm sure they noticed but (being the awesome people that they are) they didn't say a word, although I'm sure they'll help me out if the problem gets worse. So yeah, hopefully this is just temporary for whatever reason, and my speech soon gets back on track! And I wish you the very best, too. Just remember that this stutter is only a trait you have - in no way does it make you any less of a person (as some may make you feel), and in no way should you let it continue to pick at your confidence. You mentioned going to college next year. If I were you, I'd try my best to pretend you didn't have a stutter and sign up for as many activities as you can. Go in with a "so what" attitude - You don't know these folk, and they don't know you. So what if you stutter so bad that someone laughs? He/she'll forget about you in a couple of minutes anyway. You have no one to impress, and no standard to live up to. The absolute worst that could happen is that nothing regarding your situation changes (although I'd not focus on the negative outcomes :P) So yeah, just go for it. This IS a chance for you, not to reinvent yourself but to rediscover yourself. Maybe a speech therapist would help, but googling for hours and thinking hard about it certainly won't. PS - Funny note, I have always stuttered when I talk to my mom for as long as I can remember, and she's my bestest friend in the whole world. I never seem to care with her though, and she never seems to notice it either.