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Thank you! Your advice was so on point. I’m definitely trying it next time. I'm replying to your comment now after I got back from the presentation this morning, and honestly… it went better than I expected. I did stutter on some words, my tone was flat, My legs were shaking a bit, and I didn’t move from my spot. It felt like I was reciting, and at one point it was like I was in a bubble–that weird stuttering tension bubble where you feel like num and the sounds fade away. I also noticed some weird reactions‐ a bit of smiling, like "oh, so this is what she actually sounds like" from the ones who almost never hear me speak. It didn’t feel great ans i don't know how to feel about them. But overall I’m relieved. I know this took me one step forward. Now I know what I need to work on next time. I’m also thankful that the thing I feared the most didn’t happen–I didn’t completely block, I didn’t stutter on every sentence, and I didn’t lose my breath. Surprisingly, my voice wasn’t noticeably shaky. >I think our problem is we are so scared that people find out that we stammer, more than anything else. This line sums up my life-story. But I know I need to work on letting go of that fear. It's no way to live-hiding such thing constantly. And i think the major reason behind that fear is how people automatically think stuttering means you’re less intelligent or "slow". And depending on the situation, they make the wrong assumptions on what it means that you stuttered. Most people don’t know anything about it at all. I swear, if I lived in a world where people were educated about stuttering and didn’t attach all those wrong assumptions to it, I’d be 100% wiling to stutter freely. But that’s just… not what reality is actually. And I don’t mean any of this in a self-pitying way. Everyone has their own struggles. But something I’ve genuinely gained from having this condition is a deeper sense of sensitivity and compassion toward others. It made me more aware that there are far more people than we realize who suffer quietly. Every time I reflect on my own situation, it pushes me to treat others with more humanity and kindness—even people I don’t particularly like.