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Does this make any sense? So I'm just typing this as a way to get it off my chest somehow. I stutter since I was 12, I'm 20 now and it just seems to be getting worse. I think the reason I stutter is that once (as I mentioned, when I was 12), my father beat the living shit out of me. I was a little kid doing kids things and accidentally broke a couple, very expensive, crystal figurines he had. I remember being consumed by fear the instant I saw them break. Next thing I know he sends me upstairs to my room to "await" my punishment. After a couple minutes he comes in and starts ferociously beating me with his belt and hands. I was fucking helpless, couldn't make him stop even with my screams and cries. When it all ended, I rembember looking at the mirror and seeing red marks all over my body, you could see a perfect hand like it was painted. I think from that moment on I started fearing people, it takes a LOT of time for me to start trusting trusting someone, my self esteem is not in a good place either, I feel really small around people, I mean, as a child you can't understand how the person who is supposed to care of you the most, can do something like that. I haven't told this to anyone, ever, I'm in fucking tears right now, I can feel the same thing I felt that day, it's still a vivid experience for me, but I think I needed to talk about it, Anyways, does this make any sense to you? Do you have any stories that you think could explain your stutter?