I really needed to get it off my chest, so i choose reddit for it. I can't and i don't want to speak about that with my friends because they love me and they will try to motivate me even with false hopes, things i dont really appreciate. Only a stutter can understand what it means :/ I feel extremely frustrated sometimes when a good coop game comes out like Dying Light, Trine or any multiplayer fps. I want to play them with my friends but i can't .. When i was young, my friend always asked me to come playing some counter strike lan with him and i always refused. So he ended up calling me " Solo " lol