Judging by your post history you’re in that 18-22 college adult range. Before I go in further I just wanted to mention the brain doesn’t totally mature until you’re about 25 of so and you’ll definitely gain more and more perspective as you get older. The thing with suicide is it’s completely irrational, and showing the world you pretty much gave up and hit the eject button or quit the game before you beat it. I’m don’t think it’s ever been documented that a species on earth will kill itself due to extraneous circumstances, hell you see animals with half of their limbs falling off walk it off likes it’s nothing. Whether you want to believe it or not you have an impact on the world even if it’s just showing up everyday to class or talking to your family, and nobody can take that away from you, not even you or your stutter. I’m not going to sugarcoat it, life is fucking hard man and I still occasionally get suicidal like you as well. I’m changing industries at 24, seeing everybody else in my life in successful careers, while I’m restarting and probably won’t have a career till my late 20’s at the earliest is one of the most soul crushing things I’ve ever experienced. I have NICHE introverted hobbies so meeting people is hard and I live in a very awkward area for meeting people. I’ve been single my whole life and dating fucking sucks, I’ve been losing friends over petty bs and people moving on in life. Things can ALWAYS get worse, I would bet in the next couple years a family member I love dearly is going to pass away. But if you’re still here despite everything, with everything in life is telling you to quit or give up because you won’t be good enough, that’s exactly why you should keep going! To be good enough, to push against the verbal Sisyphean disorder we all endure through, to not let life win even if it’s strictly out of spite. Sorry for the text wall but I guess I needed to get that out of my system as much as you needed to get the post out of your system. Wish you and everyone else dealing with something similar the best 🫶