Everyone in this subreddit can understand what you are going through. We all have been held back in life, one way or the other because of our stutter; but in spite of whatever has happened so far, we have to believe there is something for us on the other side for all these embarrassments and failures that we have had to suffer, almost on a daily basis. Maybe we can channelize this belief to do something big with our lives. We have no other choice man, we have to keep fighting.