In my wacky college days, I inadvertently became an extreme social drunk and I have my stutter to thank for that. I was like what is this magical elixir? gulp, gulp. Every social gathering, I'd be the drunkest person there because it gave me the ability to finally fucking speak fluently and that feeling was too intoxicating for me to stop doing. So one of my prerequisites in my college was of course, the dreaded public speaking class. At this point, I had discovered another fluency agent, which were benzos. I started self-medicating myself with alcohol and benzos because if I nailed the formula just right, my stutter would completely disappear along with other important mental and physical faculties like memory and coordination. (do not do what I did, please read this as a cautionary tale) The speech I had to give was only 5 minutes long but 5 minutes to a stutterer is like talking in front of a super church congregation until the sun blows up. The fear and anxiety was maddening. So I popped some pills and knocked back way too many shots and did my speech. And I was pretty damn fluent, but my blocks were replaced with just straight up hobo slurring and I would burst out into laughter at random times, cos I was so fucked up, but that's how much I hated my anxiety/stammer. Looking back on it, I don't know what is more embarrassing, stammering through the whole speech or slurring through it and gripping the podium for support. But that's how bad my stutter was. My anxiety level was through the roof and it's just this shitty vicious cycle. The teacher obviously knew what I was doing and gave me a B+ and then pulled me aside after class and said "Hey, that was good, but don't get so drunk next time." Now, I don't abuse alcohol when I have to talk at work meetings but I am much older now, and while I cannot speak for everyone, in my experience, my stutter has decreased dramatically just through experience and getting older. Getting older makes you just not care anymore or care less. Couple that with guided meditation videos, yoga, trusted friends, endless hours of practice will win you those small victories and those small victories will add up over time and will germinate into full blown, unassailable confidence and confidence is what keeps your anxiety in check and if you're not anxious, you will stutter much, MUCH less. Again, I am speaking for me. I'm not saying drinking is bad. I still drink with my friends and it's fine, but it's not a crutch anymore. If you can just power through this awkward stage of your youth and start planting the seeds of confidence through having good, real friends who understand and don't care and listen to you with an indomitable spirit and just keep practicing, keep talking, keep trying, I guarantee you that you will get over it. But you have to start now.