First, trust me when I say you are not alone in dealing with this. I am a 18 y/o \(just turned 18\) male who severely stutters, and I also sometimes feel helpless and think [it is impossible to be a normal member of society with a stutter.](https://www.reddit.com/r/Stutter/comments/4beo7y/does_anyone_else_lurk_on_this_subreddit_hoping/) To be honest... maybe I still do. Sometimes I sit there and wonder how different my life would be if I didn't stutter, how out-going I would be and how many friends and adventures I would have, but that only makes me more and more depressed, and doesn't help me in any way. There is this quote from a rap song that I love to repeat in my head whenever I feel like giving up. It's from [Eminem's Talkin 2 Myself](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7g-oG6uzM8)(it starts at 2:39) and he says "But instead of feeling sorry for yourself do something about it Admit you got a problem you brain is clouded you pouted long enough It isn't them it's you you fuckin baby Quit worrying about what they do and do shady" And it is funny how well that relates to us stutterer's. Most of us pout and feel sorry for ourselves for having this disability that is not our faults, and that's fine to feel at first. But we have a choice, we can either fall into an endless pit of despair for the rest of our lives or try to move forward, one step at a time. We only have this one life, and rather than wishing it would change we should take steps to make sure it changes, for the better. As you have said to stop the "anxious" feeling you can meditate and practice breathing, but I think the number one way is just to practice talking to other people. You can start small and go up from there. Try asking random strangers for directions or the time every once in a while, or call walmart or something and ask for their working hours, each little step counts :) Sorry for this wall of text haha. If you ever need someone to talk to or to practice speaking, let me know. We can get through this together, you are never alone.