Yeah dude, hearing "oh but you barely stutter" sometimes makes me feel SO ANGRY because they have NO idea how much effort it took NOT to stutter! I look at it this way now though: it's the same as throwing money at the AIDS epidemic. Although treatment is really expensive and not that cost-efficient, it's easy for people who donate money to see how many people their money "saved". Money --> patient + medicine. Photogenic! When the money goes to fund prevention - condoms, education - then there's no easy way to see how many people were "saved" and the funder doesn't get that satisfaction. Preventative care is so important, yet gets ignored so much cuz it's so hard to see. BUT THEY DO THE MOST IMPORTANT JOB. And so do you, when you are so calm and accepting and collected that you barely stutter at all. :) Anyway, I can see how depression and stuttering go hand-in-hand, and lock together and keep you from getting out of either one (and your year sucked, wow). I'm really glad that you're seeing a speech therapist and reaching these revelations that make you stronger and more confident! Guilt is THE worst and, I'm sure you know, the first thing you have to let go of (not so easy when parents are involved, I know). Good luck! You seem to have a really great outlook on your life, and I'm sure that it will really pay off in your future job(s) and relationships :)