Listen man im 14 have had a sutter my whole life yea i totally get it. But look at it like this. Not everyone has everything. Everyone has somthing missing. Like me I have a good musical ear and good grades but I also have a pretty bad stutter. Like for you it might be somthing else. Lifes just like that. You must lose somthing to gain somthing. And yes i know this will sound a bit stereotypical but the way you act and speak has a large effect on how others percive you. Really people respect knowledge and skill. Yea in grade 7 I felt exactly like you. I didn't know what to do how to work my head space. Now 2 years later after lots of pain I have found a group that knows me for who I am. Yea i know i got lucky and i shouldn't be talking here as still a teen but whatever expirence I have