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Failed I'm never trying again Now I'm in a party I feel so awkward I can't speak words don't come out my voice is very low the party is very loud a girl looked at me with her side eye cuz I was standing awkwardly not doing anything just standing with no one Some people were playing table tennis so I took the most wrong decision of my life and decided to play with them There was a guy standing there waiting for his turn so I stood with him tried take a conversation but he didn't understand anything so he just nodded his head right I don't know why but I tried again and he did the same thing he was looking to me very strangely when he was playing I tried to talk again by saying who next no respond just head nodes I was so embarrassed I know people aren't the problem its me they tried to not say anything hurtful to me they tried to get out of the situation. I don't know my personality is the problem or my stuttering I'm actually very very sad and disappointed This isn't the first time this situation happened to me but this time I'm very sad I'm typing all that hoping maybe it will me feel better (as always i do and try to calm myself) 98% of my real life interactions are awful I'm only a normal person. There're a lot more to say but I'm tired from typing and that stuff to feel a little bit better and then this cycle comes again I really don't know what to do I'm going to college in less than a months I'm cooked