How old are you? I'm 33 and I grew up stuttering pretty severely and conditioned myself with some pretty hardcore anxiety - social anxiety is probably the worst part of it. It got so bad at one point - my wife and I spent Christmas at my parents house. I've always had a great relationship with them and they've been overwhelming supportive in every way. I nearly had a panic attack Christmas morning before we went down stairs to be with my parents because I wasn't able to control it anymore. My wife convinced my to get help from a professional - I see a therapist on a regular basis now. Please don't let yourself get to this point. My therapist recommended this book: http://katherinepreston.com/outwithitbook/ Katherine is able to succinctly describe the stuttering experience and emotions. She goes on to explain her own journey to finding peace with herself and being able to speak with confidence regardless of her level of fluency. I've been given advice in the past about "being ok with it" "don't worry about it" or to "relax" - I never bought it. I hated hearing that and it felt condescending. A big part of coping with stuttering (and being able to practice for fluency!) is self acceptance and gaining a healthy perspective. Hang in there and keep being yourself. Katherine does go in depth in discussing those sucky, awkward, uncomfortable speaking situations. I STILL have those moments and I HATE it every-time but I recover much faster now and am less apt to bail out of the situation.