commentr/StutterFebruary 15, 2026

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If we’re talking about muscle memory, I do think there’s something to it. At one point in my life, I took on jobs where I had to work with people constantly. Almost every time someone arrived, I would say the same sentences. Over and over again. When you repeat the same phrases all day, it becomes like a recording playing back. You stop thinking about what you’re saying. With stuttering, at least for me, part of the difficulty was that you’re paying attention to two things at the same time: what you’re saying and how you’re saying it. That double focus creates pressure. But when you repeat the same small talk, the same standard lines, with almost everyone you meet, it becomes automatic. After a while, it was nearly fluent. I think that really strengthened the muscle memory aspect. To be clear, I sometimes say that I “recovered,” but that’s not entirely true. I still stutter. If I listen back to my voice messages on WhatsApp, for example, I can hear it sometimes. It’s there. But it’s not severe, and more importantly, I just don’t care anymore. Years ago, I would have obsessed over it and made it worse by worrying. That part is gone now. One thing I’ve noticed, though: if I have to tell a long, continuous story without breaks, that’s different. When I was speaking with an interpreter, I only had to say one sentence at a time. There were natural pauses. But if I have to deliver a long, uninterrupted stretch of speech from memory, I can still feel that inner voice starting up. It says, “You won’t get through this. You’ll mess it up.” And usually, that’s when the pressure builds and problems can appear. So for me, repetition reduced the pressure. Less pressure meant more fluency. And not caring anymore made the biggest difference of all.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCoping & AdvocacyIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentMindset shiftAuthenticity vs. Masking

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