i need help, my mom is forcing me to go to a terrible therapist

i need help, my mom is forcing me to go to a terrible therapist so.......some months ago i used to see a really good therapist that helped me improve my speech skills and taught me a speech, but one day i got tired and wanted a break, i told my mom about it but she refused and kept taking me there, so ofc my stutter became worse and worse, and it kept getting worse til the therapist told her that i have depression (i don't, i just want a break, im going through alot and need to rest for a while) so she stopped taking me there. and some weeks later she told me to wake up early cause we're going to see someone, so i got suspicious, i don't trust my mom with anything, so i kept asking her where are we going and *WHY* should i go, she told me we're going to see another therapist, one that my aunt knows, i refused and told her i don't wanna go and stuff but she still took me there. when we arrived we waited for our session and then met the therapist, it was a female, she told me to speak so i tried the method the other therapist taught me but she suddenly stopped me and asked "why do you talk like that?!" she then told me to wait outside so she can "tell my parents something" (i hate it when they do that, just fucking tell them in front of me, im not a kid anymore) i went outside and eavesdropped on the door, they told her about everything my previous therapist taught me and, ofc, she said that he's wrong. that was 6 months ago, i kept seeing her for weeks and every session she would give me pictures and tell me to say what's happening in them by singing the words, i went to 3 therapists before and they tried this method but it didn't work and will never work, however, that's not the problem, the problem is that she doesn't even help, whenever i enter her room to start my session she tells me to sit on one of the chairs, the she goes out to do some stuff then takes out her phone starts talking with her friends, and after she finishes she sits in front of me and gives me those cards, then she calls her friends again without paying attention to me, then she tells my parents i did bad. that kept going on til ramadan (muslim holiday), i can't practice while fasting, so my parents told her to wait after ramadan, she agreed, and i didn't go back, until today, my mom forced me to go there again. i was really angry, my mom is ignorant, she doesn't know anything about stuttering and doesn't care enough to learn about it, the only thing she knows is that i have it, she wants me to get cured but she doesn't care how. i just HAVE to be cured. i talked to her about it but she didn't listen, so i just did what she wants cause i know nothing i say will change her mind. when i arrived there she told me to sit like always, then she went out and brought some other guy in, he took something from her disk then they both got out, and after 10 mins she came back and talked on her phone for 5 mins, and paused the call for literally just 10 seconds to give me the card then she resumed it, i kept looking at the cards and pretended that i was trying to read them, 5 mins later she finished the call and asked me why im not reading, i used pausing as an excuse, so she told me to try and read, then she talked to a friend that works with her, and kept counting the number of patients she sees every work day, i felt disgusted when i saw that, she has 50 patients that sees her multiple times a week, and they all pay her 50egp/2.83usd, she earns 17500egp/991.92usd a week for doing literally nothing. she spent 10 mins counting and writing names, then she told me my session ended, so she took me out and i went home with my parents. im so mad and disgusted, i don't wanna go there again, but my mom doesn't listen and will force me to go. how can i make her listen to me? update : my session was today, i went there and sat in the waiting room with my mom and several other people, my mom has a really, really dangerous habit, she gossips to everyone about me, including random strangers, and she also takes advice from them and try everything they say even if it can be dangerous to you, anyway, she was talking with this woman who has this kid, she said that he had to take 80 "oxygen" and some other stuff before speech therapy cause he couldn't move his body at all, and some guy sitting there told her that his kid also had to take oxygen to be able to talk normally, then told my mom to try it, i heard them and got scared, i think they're talking about oxygen therapy, i don't have any problems that requires me to take oxygen, all the doctors i went to in the past told her that, but idk, she may do what they said to her, im really scared. anyway, the therapist was talking to a doctor so she kept everyone out and told them to wait, she spent at least 1 hour there, after she finished i went into her room and waited for her to come back for 5 mins, when she finally came she gave me the cards, again, and told me to sing them, i tried to do it but i simply couldn't get the words out, she kept staring at me without doing anything, just told me to "sing them!". i spent at least 10 mins trying to say a simple word but i couldn't, she then asked me if i wanted to end today's session, i said yes. i went back with my parents to our car, and tried to tell my mom what she did but she didn't pay attention to anything i said and just told my dad that we're hungry, he drove us to a bakery because the restaurant we were going to is a small restaurant that requires you to get your own bread, so i and mom went to the bakery and my dad went to a mosque, we bought some bread and put it outside to cooldown then took it and headed to the mosque, while on the way there she noticed that there's tears in my eyes and that i look really mad, she asked me what's wrong, i told her im fine and tried to make excuses but she told me to tell her everything, and said she won't tell anyone and it'll be a secret between me and her, so i let all the tears out and told her that the method doesn't work, then tried to tell the therapist doesn't help but i couldn't because of the tears, i stopped to take my breath, then she said we'll talk after eating, we met dad at the mosque then went to the restaurant, we ate then got inside the car and drove back home, right after the car moved she whispered to my dad and told her what i said, i completely lost my trust in her after that and told myself i'll never say anything to her again. i just came back home, i heard her talk to my brother about it so i told him what the therapist did and she heard it, then she asked if i wanted to go to my previous therapist again, i told her idk, then she went to talk to my dad. i think she's talking to him about the oxygen thingy, im scared that she might do what they told her and take me there, i don't need oxygen therapy, i think if i went there i might permanently damage my lungs or any other part in my body, and lose my ability to talk. she doesn't seem to take me seriously when i talk to her, she always treats me like one of those mentally challenged kids. i don't know what to do. update 2 : fuck fuck FUCK i knew i shouldn't have fucking told her anything, goddamit. we went there today and she said she'll tell her everything and see what she'll do, so we waited til the other kid finished his session and started mine, my mom told my dad what to say and he talked to her, quess what she did? she didn't tell him any of the shit i told her, instead, she changed my words and put some other words into my mouth, i told my mom she's not a good therapist and i don't wanna go to her again, she told him that she makes me feel like a kid and that i don't wanna work with those cards, now the therapist thinks i am immature and everything im doing right now im doing it cause im young and don't know what im doing. i fucking hate life now, i don't know what im gonna do, i have no one to talk to, my mom is a narcissist, my friends have so much shit going on in their lives and i don't wanna bother them with my problems, i feel sick, i wanna cry but if i did she'll use that against me, im really worried, i feel that she's gonna ruin my whole life. update 3 : my session was today, she asked me to sing her anything then told me to sing about the movie i watched yesterday, i watched john wick so i tried to say john but i couldn't get the words out, i spent 15 mins trying to say it, and she didn't help, she just kept yelling at me to sing it and and asked me why am i unable to get the words out (she a speech therapist that has a fucking master degree and don't know why i can't do it), i kept trying and trying but i couldn't do it, so she ended the session and told my mom, then my mom asked how and why i can't get the words out, i told her but it didn't make sense to her, she just thinks im playing with them. that's it, i had enough, i will not go to the next session, and if she doesn't like it she can go fuck herself, i will not get off my bed, i will not see that stupid fucking disrespectful retarded bitch again. goddamit, ignore this, im not strong enough to do it....Fml......