Hang in there buddy! I've felt the same over the past month. As soon as I wake up my mind just shifts away from reality and focuses on many of my insecurities. My days are plagued with constant overthinking which severely hinders my ability to focus. I'd be talking to people, trying my best to listen to what they are saying, but in my head I'm really thinking about how I'll respond as I wanna make sure not to stutter and make pauses when speaking myself. All this planning and anticipation creates anxiety aaanddd... Guess what happens when you try speaking out while anxious... I START STUTTERING... Aaaarrgggghhh, I just hate it. It makes me feel so dumb and incompetent when people ask me to repeat what I said. If I'm telling a funny story, it completely ruins the fun and creates a rather awkward situation when we were supposed to have a good laugh. I just feel like I got dummer. Even writing these couple of simple sentences took me forever. It all took a huge toll on my confidence. I went from a cool, talkative guy to a shy introvert who would rather not speak out. I've always struggled with anxiety but never in this sense. My memories feel distant, almost as if they don't belong to me. It's hard for this version of myself to understand how I had the wit to hold such interesting conversations only half a year ago. I really wish I could escape this awful thought loop and go back to my normal self, worrying about college, girls and fucking basketball, not wondering if I'm depressed or have some degenerative brain disease ALL the time. Anyways, sorry if I mainly focused on myself in this response, I just needed to vent out. Try creating a new daily routine for yourself and stick to it no matter how hard it might be in the beginning. I started organizing my daily schedules ahead of time and it has had some positive impact. It's a long road ahead though, but you have to take it one step at a time. I know it is hard, but you will come out of this stronger than before. I'm convinced it'll be a valuable life lesson for both of us. Sending love from Serbia!