I get what you mean when you talk about people taking fluent speech for granted. I used to (and sometimes I still do) be so frustrated and angry at all the people that could express themselves freely, without any effort, while I had so many things I wanted to say, I needed to say, but I just couldn't say them because my speech was holding me back. It's the worst feeling, I was so angry at myself and everyone who could do what I couldn't do that I felt it burn in my guts, but I couldn't do anything but cry about it. I'm better now, and I think it's because I changed my environment. I know I still stutter like crazy with my mom, but now that I don't live with her I don't give that much importance to my speech because my entiere life has changed and by not giving it importance it lessened. I'm not saying my mom was the cause of my stutter (or yours is), what I'm trying to say is that when you have habits in a well know environment it's super hard to change them and to change your state of mind. That's why people sometimes leave everything and start a "nex life' elsewhere. Because you change and get fresh air and a fresh start the possibilities become endless. Beside everything in life is a question of mind state, you wouldn't believe how much easier are things when you're in a good state of mind. I'm overly sensitive too, and easily falls back into depression and I wanted to end my life many times in the past, sometimes because of my stutter sometimes because of everything else. I can assure you : it does get better. It doesn't get perfectly happy, but bearable, and you'll be able to enjoy things again and be happy like everyone else. I'm so sorry as a guy your sensitivity weight you down, I think it's such a shame that society forces men to be this strong emotionless cliche and girls this fragile overdriven by emotions brainless cliche too.. I strongly believe sensitive (and even overly sensitive) men are a normal thing and you shouldn't be ashamed of that, you DO deserve as much respect as anyone else, it is not a flaw. I think, like everyone else here, that you shouldn't end your life now, but not for your mom, not for anyone else but you. Because you deserve to live and get better for YOU, not to help someone else, not to not make x person sad, for YOU. You are worthy of life and hapiness and I am so sorry that you're in such a dark place that you can't see it right now, but I promise it is true. In the meantime if the only thing making you stay alive is the thought of your mom losing another person she loves, it's better than if you didn't see any reason to stay alive. You should come to the discord some day, you could share about the frustrations about being a stutterer, and just talk about everything else you want, people are really friendly there ! Hang on dude ! This is not the end !