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Opinions needed I'm in my 30s. I've been stuttering as long as I can remember. My mother actually swears that I started speech therapy in early elementary school because I pronounced my "R" sounds like a guy from Boston. "Get in the cah and drive!". Supposedly I was stuttering within months of starting that speech therapy. I don't know. I don't remember a time when I didn't stutter. I do have faint memories of that speech therapy and working on the "R" though. Anyway, I'm the type of stutterer who if left alone in a room could host a rousing 3 hour talk radio show.... as long as I knew no one was listening. If I'm about to order a pizza, I can hold the phone up to my ear, speak the order in perfectly inflected, beautiful tonal english. Then when I dial the number and get someone on a line I can barely string together 3 words. I've expanded my vocabulary a lot to get around problem words. I've lied about my name to strangers I'd never see again (huge problem saying my name. It's not even a sound that I commonly stutter on.). I also have adopted what I can describe as "buffers" where I'll use a word (or for a couple years an awful click that I thankfully got rid of) to lubricate the next word. "Like like like like like" was one I used for a while. Didn't really suit me since I'm a huge dude who does hard physical labor for a living so valley girl talk wasn't an ego boost to say the least. Now I've adopted the "fucking" as my buffer. "fucking fucking fucking fucking". It sounds like I have turrets. Since it's a knee jerk thing like most stuttering related stuff, I've found it slipping in front of people I for sure should not be cussing around (bosses at work). I don't know what I'm trying to get out of this. Advice? Tips? Fellowship? TL;DR I don't stutter alone. I always stutter when I say my name even though the sounds are not my problem sounds. Now I've adopted the word "fucking" as a buffer word and say it 300 times a day. Repeating it as many as 6 times before getting the word out. Generally my stutter has gotten worse over the last few years and I have some days where I can barely even speak to people I'm comfortable around.