OP, I really relate. I recently started a new job at the same time as two other people, and seeing how effortlessly they connect with our colleagues makes me feel both envious and a bit sad. I’ve tried talking with them, but I struggle to open up and express myself, so forming a connection feels really hard. Most days I end up eating lunch alone while watching the other new hires chat and laugh with everyone, and honestly, it hurts more than I’d like to admit. I keep reminding myself that I’m here to work and earn money, not necessarily to make friends but seeing how easy it seems for others still stings. Nowadays making connections is super important to advance in carreer etc. Not being able to do it like others is killing me on the inside sometimes but the reason for me to keep going is because i still have my sister and good parents and can't imagine how they would feel if i was gone.