I think as Ive gotten older and confident, the "incidents" are limited to perhaps some very isolating and stressful situations. Covids 100% made it worse because I am working from home and don't get to practice talking as much. It almost feel like my jaws are are getting locked in place because of this. My mom was awful till I was 21, and now that I am away from her physically and emotionally, she's trying her best to repair our relationship. Perhaps its because I was her first born and she had no idea how to raise one? IDK i am probably justyfying this because it hurts even more to think a parent would intentionally abuse their child in this manner. Man even my bullies weren't this cruel about it. I have definitely grown out of that phase, and can now tolerate conversing with her without getting triggered. And I hope one day I get to walk into a presentation and just go LISTEN UP BITCHES I STUTTER AT TIMES SO NOW MOVING ON TODAY I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT ELECTROCHEMICAL DEVICES AND MAYBE DONT INTERRUPT ME.