Sorry that you've had such a difficult time with your stammer and that it's got in the way of doing things that you want to do. People often say that school can be the most difficult time. Often it's the thoughts and feelings about speaking situations and the stammer that can have the biggest impact on people. You're entitled to reasonable adjustments for speaking exams and presentations - you should be allowed to do your presentation just to the teacher rather than the whole class, or extra time in speaking exams such as for Drama, or languages. It's not being awkward - it's giving you an equal chance to show your skills. Teachers have to make adjustments for students if needed, and so do workplaces by law. I want to reassure you that people who stammer can do whatever job and be very successful. It definitely helps to meet other people who stammer, as this can help to share your experience. The STAMMA website is a brilliant resource - it has a helpline, information about support available, and articles written by people who stammer. (If you are UK based) https://stamma.org/ Also check out stambassadors https://actionforstammeringchildren.org/stambassadors/ This is people who stammer who shared their career journeys. Telling a close person (parent, best friend) about your stammer and how you're feeling can help to share the load.