I (39f) was teased mercilessly in school and I did try to commit suicide twice. I struggled with suicidal thoughts in adulthood, some as recently as 2 years ago. I have been hospitalized many times for mental health issues. I honestly don't know how I came back each time but it took a long time. I'm now a small business owner, I've traveled the world, am an award-winning author, and last week I got a major award for my work in technology. I definitely have issues with extremes - either extremely depressed or extremely successful. If you are having suicidal thoughts, please know that your life is precious and you deserve to have a good life. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/