My stutter has completely defined my life thus far...

My stutter has completely defined my life thus far... When I was a kid I decided the best way to combat my stutter was to simply not talk. If I wasn't embarrassed whilst speaking, I would never feel bad! Needless to say being practically a mute during my developmental years was a life changing decision. Well here I am at 25, I've never kissed a girl, had a girlfriend or been on a date. I don't have any friends and don't do anything social. I identify as a stutterer. It's what got me to this point. I think stuttering is ugly. I think I'm ugly, because how do you get to this point and not think anything else? It's always a vicious cycle - I hate myself for a past I lost to stuttering, but whenever I entertain positive thoughts about the future I remind myself there are times where I stutter badly on my name when introduced to people at work. It's hard to ever accept stuttering will be just as present in my future as well.