I do feel this way a lot. I'm only 16, and I've been hoping since I was about 8 that my stutter would go away when I was older, I've kept telling myself it will get better... It hasn't and this has lead me to think in the back of my mind that it never will. This has just made me more of a listener. I guess the only way through it is to hope, it's really what keeps me going anyway, the hope that one day; I'll wake up and I wont stutter - Hope is all I have, but It's really all I need.