I used to stutter for most of my life, now it's completely gone, and I'm just curious on why it's gone, and what ''cured'' me. And maybe it will help some of you
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I used to stutter for most of my life, now it's completely gone, and I'm just curious on why it's gone, and what ''cured'' me. And maybe it will help some of you Just come across something about stuttering, and remember it used to be a huge part in my life, and I have almost completely forgot about it. **The Start** I started stuttering rather late, at around age 7 or something. I remember being at a birthday and seeing my parents talk to a guy that stutters. My next stutter related memory was having to read in front of class, it went fine until I came across the word ''Rainbow'' I was reading a sentence and suddenly, nothing. I couldn't say the word, after about 2 seconds I was panicking : ''why can't I say this word?'' It all started here. My stuttering was 85% blocks, I had these periods where I couldn't say some letters, for example. A week I would not be able to say word that start with a W, or with a D, or both and a whole number of combinations. But the worst would be, starting a sentence, or calling something. For example calling my mom, ''Hey Mom'' I wanted to say, but nothing came out but fear and shame, my brain freezes, my mouth freezes, my lungs compress desperately trying to get the words out. But once I was talking, it was fine, probably because I wasn't paying attention to it, blocks rarely happened mid sentence. Anyway, it got worse until about 14, where it peaked, and I was terrified or talking, I didn't want anyone to know I stuttered. When I felt a block, I would quickly think of a similar word, and use that. **The end** As I grew older, I could control it better, I would have these periods of months where I barely stuttered at all, and then some periods where it became worse. This was around age 17, I started drinking and was also very depressed. I was blackout drunk almost every week, I just loved getting fucked up. (I hate alcohol now though) This is where it really became better, during this period, I barely stuttered, I still had these periods of improvement and stuttering again, but they became more equal, over the course of two drug consuming years I just didn't give a shit anymore. I am now 20, and never stutter anymore, very rarely a 'regular' s-stutter, like normal people sometimes have. Well that's it. I never visited this sub before, maybe there's already a cure, I don't know. I just wanted to share my story