What’s been helping me recently with my stutter.

What’s been helping me recently with my stutter. Quick background information on me: 21 years old, college student, have stutter that fluctuates in severity, pretty normal dude I would say, stutter generally mild though causes me insane anxiety that I battle everyday, Yada yada yada..... I’ve had times in my life where my stutter is generally non existent and there’s been other times where I’m scared to ask for a large coke.... you get the picture. I’ll just cut straight to the point. As I mentioned, I am a college student and though my stutter plays a role on the way I’ve lived my life, it hasn’t stopped me from being myself and generally doing what I want. I played division 1 baseball for two years, have had a few relationships with good women, had jobs, partaken in organizations, have a social life, party, and recently just got accepted into graduate school. With that being said, I like to live life, or at least try to. My friends invited me to a rave a couple weeks ago with some pretty solid DJ’s. I have always enjoyed listening to electronic dance music ( EDM ) but was never one to really listen to it all that much. I would just pretty much bop my head when I heard it playing. Anyway, I just wanted to try something new so I said to hell with it, let do it. My friends who I was with in particular are the types who occasionally like to experiment with psychedelics, and they asked me if I wanted to drop acid ( LSD ) with them. My immediate response was no, because I’m not a big drug user. I typically just enjoy drinking beer and I’ve smoked a little bit of pot here and there but I never even considered psychedelics, figured it wasn’t my cup of tea. Out of curiosity I did a little reddit searching on psychedelics such as acid a lot of posts were pretty much concluded that it leads to “ expansion of the mind “... as cliche as that sounds and well I’m a pretty deep person as it is so I figured why not. I had a gyroball of curiosity just winding in my head and I just sort of said f**k it. So we take the acid hours before the concert and we’re all tripping pretty good. We were just hanging on the couch of my condo talking, laughing, sharing ideas, and ultimately reflecting on our lives. As I mentioned, I’m a pretty deep person as it is, this stuff made me like 3x as deep. I thought about myself, my family, my stutter, my dreams, Jesus, pretty much everything that mattered to me. In particular, with my stutter I came to the conclusion that I don’t want to stutter any more and that I don’t have to and it was something that I thought immensely about throughout a good portion of my time reflecting. Anyway, we end up going to concert and well we just have an absolute blast. We’re there dancing to EDM music for 5 straight hours and if I’m being honest I hadn’t had that much fun in a long time. After that concert, my liking for EDM music just skyrocketed. It’s literally all I’ve been listening to and while I’m listening to it I’m pretty much just dancing the whole time. Not full out dancing or anything but I for sure will be moving my head to the music, specially head banging haha. After listening to it, I’ll find myself extremely happy and I’ll just be in more or an uplifted mood. I now often catch myself smiling for no reason and my fluency and confidence has increased a ton. NOW, I want to mention that I believe the MUSIC is what has had the BIGGEST effect on my recent improvements. EDM music is typically upbeat, and well that causes me just to start moving and pretty much jamming out and getting lost. Ultimately, it just excites my brain, but like in an awesome non-anxious way. Which is pretty ironic because EDM has a lot anticipation because you typically find yourself just waiting for that beat drop, at least in my experience. Now the reason why I mentioned my acid experience is because I think it just sort of helped me open my mind and really just appreciate everything in the moment such my friends, my loved ones, the music, and myself. It sort of helped me come to the conclusion that I’m going to be okay. Though to truly believe that is easier said then done, I believe it more and more every day. My speech is not perfect, but it has been most definitely been improving with consistency since I started pouring my heart out electronic dance music as silly as that sounds. It has really just been improving my overall mood lately, and that obviously has a direct positive affect on my fluency and my mental health. Please note that I’m not telling you to take LSD or to break your neck head banging to upbeat electronic music. Drugs are NOT the answer to ANYTHING and not everyone likes EDM music. I just wanted to share the recent events that have been taking place in my life that have been leading to great improvements in my speech, even though it was never intensely severe. My anxiety that my non-perfect speech caused was the issue, which obviously led to more stuttering. As a result of my uplifted mood, my anxiety attacks less resulting in the probability of being fluent being more likely. I guess where I’m trying to get it is find something that makes you happy and that positively increases your energy levels. I think dance and music are great ways to let loose! I’m not trying to write a research paper or anything, but it has been proven by several sources that music profoundly has an affect on your mood. That’s freaking awesome man! I would like to apologize if this post is all over the place and isn’t in MLA format with spellcheck. I’m just really typing whatever comes to my mind. I’ve been really jam packed with school right now and I just really wanted to share my thoughts as quickly as possible. If I can help just one person through my experiences, which I feel like I can, I knew I had to share this. Let me know what you think! I’ve never really interacted with many other stutterers. By the way.... I’m going to a huge EDM festival in the month. It’s getting pretty serious LOL.