Wow I'm so sorry to hear that, yes it is very hard to lead a life with stuttering which fuels anxiety which further fuels stuttering and so on.... goddamit. But health problems coupled with stuttering and anxiety is a major issue and I'm just aware of it now because of you. I like the point about suffering during the speech and not before it. Yes my mum always tells me to meditate, exercise but I never listened to her lol. But I think I should get into it thank you for that. And lastly yahh I consume a lot of porn :( I'm trying to reduce it too. I hope you do well. Take care.