Eight years is a long time to carry this around. How long do you want to carry this around? How long are you going to carry this around? May I suggest giving this its due attention one last time. Sit down with a pad of paper or your phone. Then work all the way through this. All of it. Every bit. If you have triggers that bring it to mind, then you should address those as well. If you need to, share it with your Dad. Share it with your whole family. You don't have to keep carrying this. And you don't have to do any of this alone.