I feel your pain. I stutter too sometimes it's terrible sometimes it's mild depending on the weather (terrible in cold weather) and depends on who I'm talking to also. I live deep in Africa (southern Africa specifically) Here people have a really bad attitude to stammering you can hear someone say "Can you please stammering!!" Cruel I know. Once was told to play a character in a book and I stuttered severely and I was laughed at. I cried I felt so weak and empty. I'm about to start university too and I wanted to do something like accounting or try to be a pilot but numbers are my trigger. I honestly don't know how to help I just want you to know that you are not alone. I read some guys' stories here yesterday and it helped me feel not alone and I still feel better even today. They say speech therapy helps perhaps you should try it can't have that luxury here cause there are no speech therapists around so I am my own therapist. See the fear of a blockage elevates the stutter so try to get past that fear I know it's really hard to crush the fear but once you need to relax it's hard for me too even today, but once you beat the fear you also beat the stutter. Acceptance is also important. Who you are has been moulded by the stutter as I'm sure you already know. Your starter is part of who you are accept it and it will help you feel better and you'll stammer less. It's hard to accept it but it's really important for you and it might even help you live the life you so deeply want. I believe in you my actor and Enterprenuer