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I just realized something. This may seem like one of the biggest realizations ever, for me personally. When I went to daycare (In sweden it's age 2/3-5/6) my best friend was deaf. I "talked" fluent sign language. I even helped teach the daycare teachers to learn sign language. I've totally repressed those times of my life. I don't know a single "word" in sign language today. I remember how impressed the teachers, my parents and other people were. I don't know anything about sign language now. It seems like when I ended daycare and went to pre-school, all of those sign language skills disappeared. Note that all of this was at an extremely young age. When I started pre-school I also realize that's the time of my life where my stuttering got to be a real problem. Because most kids that stuttered stopped by this age. There has to be a connection, between me not learning to speak properly and me being more interested in sign language "more than real talking" when I was that young of age. Do any of you guys have any similar experiences? Is there any studies that support what I just realized or is this a dead end you think? My stutter affects my life, but not the extent where I'm embarrased and ashamed of it, I'd say it affects me psychologically, but not the extent where I hate myself, etc. The reason I came to think of this is that I've seen the same kid now, in high school (swedish gymnasie), he was in the class for "special" kids. He just graduated and I feel so sorry for not even being able to communicate with him, I just realized it's the same guy when I looked at old pictures from daycare. He used to look at me, but I thought since that kid is in special class it's probably nothing. He's probably recognized me, and I haven't even spoke to him, even when I looked at him I didn't recognize him unill just now. Late night, home alone, this is what happens when you kill time looking through old pictures.